27 January 2010
there is a presentation nxt week. and i am really nervous about tt.
been a long time since i was so nervous about
a presentation.
currently doing ppt for it.
but tis time its so damn stressful.
everything i put in, i mus evaluate issit useful or how am i gonna present it.
all the tinking is making me damn slpy.
tried slping early for the past few days.
but failed.
either i woke up and cant slp agn. or i practically cant slp.
even though i know i am tired.. but jus cant slp.
seriously looking forward to the end of the internship.
9 more days.................
but i need to get past the last obstacle....
thurs gng zirca. actually im still considering whether to anot.
cos fri i got to work. and i need to finish my ppt to let my boss see thru.
actually kind of worried how he will view it.
but lets say. if i managed to finish it by thurs. den i can tkae mc for fri.
hmmm... lets see how my progress. means i tml cant slack. mus chiong..
posted @ 1/27/2010 02:45:00 PM |
26 January 2010
ok.
lets say if you are saying that i used you as a gossip partner.
i plead you to tink agn.
from the start
there were never once i initiated conversation gossiping. the only time i initiated convo wit u were things regarding abt interim reports and attachments..
everytime it was you who come asking me all the questions in the world that you wanted to know. saying you were concerned or watever nice terms you want to describe yourself as.
and me, my duties were only filling up ur qns with my ans. never once did i go to you and started to say anything. it was you out of no where, msning me abt my life and watsoever that you were overly 'concerned' about me saying you were my fren.
so in another words, saying you were being used is a definite NO in this case. and i know you had live long enough to abt realised the fact i am being very rude. cos i had seen enough of your antics. you are someone who i can describe as a double-faced person. you tried acting to be on good terms wit everyone be it yr 1 2 or 3, 'concerned' abt everything tats happening, creating unnecessary nuisance, creating unneccessary drama. if you were in my class right now, the first name i am gonna obstracise is gonna be yours. seriously, i dun care how many ppl gonna defend you and criticise me cos this is my own opinion. dun force me to change my opinion, make me change it instead. i know that i got weakness and flaws of my own. but i am jus toking abt wat i dun like ppl toking abt me like they are on close terms wit me. and esp saying tat i did sth which i never. i seriously wont jus let it pass so easily.
i can garauntee you tat, you are not in the list who are i deem that are on close terms with me. tats who i am, being rude to ppl tt i dun like or i deemed being very fake. you always say wat you dun feel right being wit yr 2s. but from wat i read, it doesnt seem tt true to me. will you hang out with a grp of ppl that you dun feel belonging wit. the logical ans is no, unless you got some factor which you couldnt ignore.
another incident that i wan to mention is the log camp. if you got lots and tonns of projs and assignment to do, den you can choose not to come and stay home and do your work. why keep bothering ppl asking whether should you come anot when the fact that when you came, you dun follow instructions, not participating in the activity citing as you got assignments to do and want to stay at the loft to do it.'my fren' you tink you are the only one in camp with tonns of hwk and assignments to do, i bet most of them have the workload you are having, but i dun see them creating a fuss out of it. its really god dammn irritating when the fact that you are in yr 3 alr and you shld noe how to handle the workload cos you are much more vastly experienced than the juniors. also, changing grps witout prior notice saying that you wan to be with your frens. hello, the purpose of camps is to help you make more frens. though i know that being witout frens will be less fun, but if i aint wrong, there were ppl you deemed frens in your original grp. so wat, they aint your frens in camp.?
my conclusion,
STOP ACTING LIKE A DIVA WHEN YOU ARE NOT EVEN CLOSE TO BEING ONE.
NOTE
THIS BLOG POST IS JUS MY OPINION AND YOU MAY THINK I AM BIASED OR WATSOEVER, YOU WAN TO LET ME KNOW, DEN LET ME KNOW. AND SERIOUSLY, I DUN LIKE TO SEE CONTENT ABT ME IN YOUR BLOG POST. IF YOU WAN TO WRITE THINGS ABT ME, PLS SUPPORT IT WITH EVIDENCE, MAKE ME CONVINCED THAT I AM WRONG. AND NOT WRITE THINGS WHICH ARE UNTRUE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
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posted @ 1/26/2010 10:10:00 AM |
25 January 2010
had quite a active weekends.
sat
tuition
after tt, went to visit my grandpa at my uncle hse.
thank god. he wasnt as sick as my bro had described. damn relieved.
in fact he looked alright. the usual him. the after-grandma-had-gone him i meant.
i was so afraid tt i may not make it on time. TOUCH WOOD.
after tt. brought my mum and bro to movies at vivo.
it had been a long time(maybe 15years) for my mum to step into the cinema.
invited my dad along too. but he rejected my offer. hais.
my treat for them. and i realised sth.
ppl, if you wan to watch movies at vivo. be ready to by it online. and EARLY
though i bought online. but its a lil late. first row seats are definite no for me the next time.
for the whole movie. i cant focus on the whole screen. but at least my mum enjoyed the movie.
and oh, btw. is spy next door that we watched.
okk.. i shall bring them to movies quite often.
since i oso dun have much chance to go to movies.
after movie was shopping for a shirt.
cos mine got dirty. and i still need to go out at night.
so walked ard. and settled it with a dickies red checkered shirt.
quite comfy to wear.
st james powerhouse was next. with the hao rens.
but too bad. ken din go in cos he dun have IC. eh dude. go get a replacement lah.
powerhouse was cool. except its damn packed. abit pissed at times with the ppl moving ard.
seems that theres an issue with another grp of ppl tts why we left early and quickly.
but overall.. nth much happened.
sun
practically slp but a idiotic phone call at 12pm spoilt it.
after tt slacked using com den lunch den another short nap before waking up.
now video console before gng for a jog. wanted to go gym but
it was closing at 8pm din realise tt till we were there.
but one thing i understood(quite some time alr)
in order to have a productive day at work,
one mus have sufficient slp and rest.
cos now im lazing at my work desk. hesitating to do my ppt. though its due on wed.
irritating lack of slp. eyelids closing. adn dun feel like doing anything. and the time is passing so slowly that i have to find sth to type which is this blog post. (yea. instead of my ppt)
day after day, i find ways to forget about you
posted @ 1/25/2010 01:39:00 PM |
22 January 2010
i guess 2010 wont be tt kind for me afterall..
pls god. you jus taken my grandma away from me.
pls dun take my grandpa too soon.
let him live well, live healthily.
even though i not as attached to him as to my late grandma.
he's my grandpa.
even though i always need my mum to translate for me wat he is saying.
or i will jus nod head and agree.
its damn funny when i tink of it.
jus hope that it wont be very soon that.
i need your loving hands
posted @ 1/22/2010 08:57:00 AM |
21 January 2010
i dun wan to keep myself hopeful and den to be disappointed terribly.
but i jus cant ignore it.
i hate guessing games.
on the brighter note
two overseas trips confirmed.
one is driving to tioman.
the other YEP.
my mind is tired from all the wat if and maybe and all my work stuff.
these trips will be good rest for my mind
i wan to tell you alot of things.
thoughts in my mind jus wont come out as words.
maybe u are jus too overwhelming.
posted @ 1/21/2010 12:58:00 PM |
17 January 2010
happy birthday to you
posted @ 1/17/2010 02:27:00 PM |
14 January 2010
i know, the moment i click on the comment tab.
chances of me and you tog agn is going to be zero i guess.
but i seriously hate the fact that how convinient for you all to always blame the seniors whenever the trouble starts. everytime.
great. now i got another reason to completely forget.
work is a bore.
been slacking at work. very very tired.
if i can go back to the past
i will choose to grow old with you
but now,
tat person wont be me.
posted @ 1/14/2010 09:00:00 AM |
12 January 2010
very slpy today.. ok. im slpy everyday.
attachment is ending.. but i hvn really complete my work.
tink i better start doing. but slakcig is such a tempting job to do.
btw,
the human heart is such a mystery.
for a moment. everything seems so rosy.
but at the next moment, phoof* it goes 180 degrees.
ppl asked me why i broke up. seriously. i dunno. and i dun intend to find out. so wat if i got the ans. i can do nth abt it anymore. but those happy moments are nice one. so jus let it stay tt way.
i have been wondering recently. why my life turned out the way it is now. been tinking alot.
but i'm not gng to tink anymore. it really makes you very tired. FATIGUE.
if you guys got a person you like and you are hesitating. i will jus say. go for it. text him/her. dun wait anymore. dun wait till you lose the chance or you lose her. easy for me to speak. hard for me to execute. i lost my chance. tts too bad.
i guess.. i still do love you.
but im never gonna tell you tt.
imy
posted @ 1/12/2010 10:57:00 AM |
08 January 2010
it doesnt matter anymore.
i feel happy for you.
posted @ 1/08/2010 12:53:00 PM |
07 January 2010
months have passed.
but something jus doesnt change.
i think about you.
i wan to care about you
i wonder who you will call to walk you home at night
posted @ 1/07/2010 01:27:00 PM |
05 January 2010
call me stupid or watever.
but i smiled so silly when i was looking at the animation.
you got me right there.
though its never gonna be mine agn.
posted @ 1/05/2010 08:50:00 AM |
