31 August 2009
你是那么地美丽
又那么的温柔
每次看到你
我都感到生活又充满了希望
你又隐藏着那么多的秘密
有时也会暴躁
但我知道 在你心里
是深深的宁静
我 爱 你
its true. i do love you
im sorry.
你开心就好。
posted @ 8/31/2009 12:38:00 PM |
jus when i need ur loving hand to pick me up
u push me deeper down.
i wish i can read ppl mind oso. esp urs.
i can only guess based on their actions.
instead of keep guessing.
why not everyone jus speak their mind
at least my life will be better.
i feel so down.
been ignored for the past 2 weeks.
it never felt good.
miserable at best.
2 weeks to sort it out.
i dunno whats gng on wit my life.
can you tell me ur thoughts?
all i wan is tis.
posted @ 8/31/2009 12:16:00 PM |
29 August 2009
i jus wanna love you. tts all.
as simple as tt.
posted @ 8/29/2009 11:55:00 PM |
if we are 1 km apart
i will make up the 1km
if we are 10 km apart
i will make up the 10 km
if we are worlds apart
i will still make up the distance
jus to be wit you
posted @ 8/29/2009 05:08:00 AM |
25 August 2009
DT paper tml morning
and yet. im barely half done for revision
hahas
all the best for me and the peeps taking the paper
or having exams tml.
see ya.
posted @ 8/25/2009 09:23:00 PM |
你是那么地美丽
又那么的温柔
每次看到你
我都感到生活又充满了希望
你又隐藏着那么多的秘密
有时也会暴躁
但我知道 在你心里
是深深的宁静
i dont love you anymore
cos im in love wit you.
posted @ 8/25/2009 08:16:00 PM |
24 August 2009
rule no 37
CONCENTRATE!!
but headache lah
hahas.
not enough slp and plus i keep bumping my head.
front and back. does not help at all
and..
i noticed sth
my fitness level dropped alot.
diee.. PFT coming soon at NOV. how.?
or issit my will to run has gone.? hmmm...
will power pls come back. i need you in my life. haha :D
posted @ 8/24/2009 08:07:00 PM |
23 August 2009
been a week since my grandma passed away.
life these days are very tiring for me.
i cant rest properly for one day even.
luckily i got tis weekend which i can slp in all day.
but still..
veri tired.
hahas.
exams came and wont be gone till the end of the week
and if u tot i can rest proper after tt.
haha. u are wrong
2 weeks after exams
im gng for attachment at schering plough
5 mths of work. no leave. no hols.
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I wish you were here with me
tonight
posted @ 8/23/2009 07:43:00 PM |
19 August 2009
tis period of time had been gloomy for me.
my grandma had passed away last fri.
suddenly alot of thoughts came into my mind
the moment i saw my grandma dead body.
i unknowingly cried.
it had been such a long time since i had cried..
all that came my mind was
how did it happen
jus 2 weeks ago she was laughing and so active
all of the sudden
poof* she is now on her way to the heavens
i regretted alot.
i have not been paying her much visit in the last few years..
only until recently tt i will stay over at my grandma hse on mons
even that,
i din conversemuch wit her cos she will be slpy by the time i reached her hse,
and i will be leaving for sch early in the morning
i wont be hearing her asking me concernly ”你吃饱了吗。？“ and other concerning words that she will definitely ask me when she sees me..
all the nostalgic feelings that i had when i went to her hse after hosp. to prepare for wake.
all my childhood memories.. the bed that my grandma slept on
the place that my cousins and i will play.. all those..
and now. all its left is only a empty room
however, i din cry much durig the wake..
cos i had this theory.. i wan to send my grand ma off cheerfully.. cos she told me once that
my bro and i always make her happy..
tts why i tried not to cry during the rituals. but my tear buds jus dun listen to me.
today i went to collect her ashes..
the once cheerful grandma i had.. now all its left its only bones.
even my father cried when he was driving as we are bringing her ashes to some cemetry
he told me.. he always drive my grandma ard in his taxi eday.. now oso drive her ard.
plus exam is right round the corner.. and things hasnt been gng smoothly for me.
i hope i wont suffer heartbreak after heartbreak.. i rather face it all at once.. so ppl.
got bad news jus tell me.
dun need to worry abt me.. cos i believe im strong enough to face it
cos my name is... TING WEI YANG!! hahas..
a side note:
thanks for the comforting messages that u sent me
i truly felt better knowing that u will stay by me
tis incident taught me alot of things
cherishing ur loved ones is one
i hope u still will let me cherish you. hahas X)
i noe you may not have the mood to study
do work hard
we will strive for good results :D
JIAYOUS!!
if only i can make you smile that sweetly everytime i meet you
your sweet smile never fails to brighten my day.
i swear.
cross my heart
ah ma,
放心走吧。
posted @ 8/19/2009 11:33:00 PM |
12 August 2009
alot of things are occupying my mind
haha.
GLM test today.. was a i-dunno-how-will-i-fare thing.
if the cher good mood. i can score
cos all things i only generally noe onli
received a sms when i was revising for it
it says alot abt my grandma condition
was being so distracted by it.
i tried to force the info in.
cant really focus.
got no complains though.
being a regular to SGH.
i go there everyday after sch
tml..the docs are gonna remove the life support for my grandma
to see whether she can adapt witout it.
both my mind and heart are in a turmoil
argh.. if only i could do more..
my wish may be the command
but ur happness is my priority
sometimes im wondering....
给我亲爱的奶奶
谢谢你把我养的那么大
很对不起我这几年没什么去探望你
真的有点后悔
请早日康复
我还想吃你煮的菜
别再睡了
阿公想念你
大家都是
sorry for tis quite a emo post.
i will get over it soon enough k
posted @ 8/12/2009 11:21:00 PM |
11 August 2009
how i wish things can be easier for me.
im really tired.
test. exams and my grandma condition.
really... how i wish
if anybody got anything in their mind that they wan to say
pls tell me
im veri tired to guess this and tt.
even if its nt pleasent to the ears.
how worse can it get. :)
posted @ 8/11/2009 02:36:00 PM |
oh god.
why mus tis happen at tis time
received call from uncle.
grandma now in critical condition
jus came back frm hosp
gng back there soon
fel so helpless.
fcuk tis thing.
bless tt my grandma pull through.
pls.
posted @ 8/11/2009 06:22:00 AM |
07 August 2009
ok. im feeling rather positive looking right now. i dunno why.. i jus somehow not so 'tired' anymore.. but physically. im still very slpy. hahas
cos i noe. i believe her cherful self will return soon.
i jus wan her to be happy.
regardless of anything.
theres a saying
'when god close a door, he will open a window for you'
i truly hope tis sudden gush of optimism will last me thru.
hahas.
pls.. !!
posted @ 8/07/2009 10:56:00 PM |
these days are really mind taxing, energy consuming and time wasting.....projs and assignments......... fcuk those.
i feel so so down.
give me a sign
and i will do it.
i need to workout.
Patience was never a virtue of mine.
‘cause of you, I mastered it(I tink)
posted @ 8/07/2009 06:16:00 PM |
05 August 2009
im so tired.
sleep is my best fren right now.
and it doesnt seem to like me alot.
cos im still so tired.
haha
posted @ 8/05/2009 03:40:00 PM |
04 August 2009
i truly believe that one day, the cheerful positive you will be back.
i will be patiently waiting
i got your back.
dun worry abt that. :)
posted @ 8/04/2009 11:01:00 PM |
02 August 2009
lonely lonely weekend.
hahas. reason being she and i are being downloaded by projs. i got 3 presentation tis week. 2 test. still got SSP presentation. i dunno issit tis week or next week. hahas.
i tink her workload is much tougher than me.. im used to it alr.. afterall. final year alr. hahas. it mus have been really tough on you. hang on there. JIAYOUS. i shall be patient these few weeks.. im always here. good food awaits us after all those projects. :D
anw..
IAP wise.. i m gng for Schering Plough for interview. hope it will succeed.. nice payroll too...hahas
also
god, pls bless my grandpa. thanks alot.
posted @ 8/02/2009 10:25:00 PM |
