time heal all wounds but every wound leave a deep scar
im tired of smiling and oh yea. i do miss you
posted @ 9/28/2009 04:15:00 PM |
25 September 2009
realise the fact that it had been a long time since i watched a movie at a cinema. i wonder why too. cos i love watching movie at cinema.
posted @ 9/25/2009 01:17:00 PM |
ppl always say look forward to the future. but isnt it better when u stopped and look back at how far u have come
had a nice dream last night. but for wat. dream is not reality.
posted @ 9/25/2009 08:18:00 AM |
23 September 2009
its easy to say it to others. why issit harder to do it myself. i ought not to get distracted. but i mus admit. its always on my mind. but now, im trying to push it to be the back of my mind. maybe the wallpaper isnt helping.(laptop) and the alone moments im afforded at work isnt helping much too.. very good moment for me to go into deep thoughts. cos BOSS is not around. hahas. i tink my smile look damn awkward.. ok. why i realise it cos im bored at work. tts why i take my cam any play.. testing teh cam meanwhile btw, im slowly adapting into attachment life.. but it sucks when most of my frens are having hols now.. oso im slightly disappointed of IAP cos i tot work can occupy my thoughts. though it does occupy a certain portion. but still not enough. i dunn wan to be reminded time and time agn. maybe i only have myself to blame. :D anw.. conclusion of my reflection of my life.
EVEN THOUGH THERE ARE CERTAIN THINGS I WAN TO ACHIEVE OR OBTAIN. BUT I DUN TINK IM PUTTING ENOUGH EFFORT IN IT. BE IN WORK, RELATIONSHIP OR WATEVER SORT OF THINGS.. I NEED TO LEAVE MY COMFORT ZONE. BUT I DUN HV THE CONFIDENCE. ESP AT WORK. IM REALLY SCARED I WILL SCREW UP MY IAP. IS NOT ROUTINE WORK IM DOING. BUT A PROJECT. IMAGINE IHP WIT SALARY.. WORSE. THERE IS NO ONE TO BACK ME UP. IM ALL ON MY OWN... IM SCARED.. IM REALLY SCARED. BUT SHE WONT BE THERE FOR ME ALR...
HAHA. CHEER UP DUDE.
a doctor cant never heal his ownself. i wan a short getaway trip. go anywhere oso can. jus can relax and have fun. lying on the suntan chair, drinking cocktail and jus enjoy the sun..... YEP trip is a must for me nxt yr. cos the last experience is a good one. i wan to go for it agn. but we were lucky previously. cos workload not heavy.. the nxt one i dun tink will be tt lucky. but still.. looking at those small kids having fun. is oso good for ur mind.
but seriously.. let me emo for awhile more. really. i dun like the way my life is now. sometimes early in the morning after bath i come out. suddenly feel damn chilly. i will tink. HOW SAD IS LIFE NOW.... seriously sometimes i wonder wats the value of ur faith. it seems tt it ends so easily. like one snap. over liao. i din have time to react or should i say. i dun have time to understand the situation. maybe the fault lies with me. but i dunno wat did i do wrong. everything is all u say one. u never tell me anything. not even a valid reason.. btw are u seriously not gonna rply me forever. but why am i writing all tis.? when maybe she wont even read or even if she does read.. maybe she will tink *i hate guys who are very emo* etc. even if she doesnt tink anything. tis is my space for freedom of speech. so if there are peeps who wan to KP me. i will jus say. FUCK OFF. you are warned. actually main reason is i see ppl write abt tis too. ahahaahahahhahas. is a good form of venting all ur unhappiness.. true true true..... im a happier man than 0.5 hrs ago. jus slightly better... but its a improvement. good job dude. work harder. :D
on the positive note, and congrats to jiafeng for passing his TP today uh.. cruising trip soon. me and eugene be pillion. hahas
life been real dull for me recently. why? cos of attachment. everyday feel so KO'ed and now too.. and its only the start of the day its work home slp work agn. cant wait for fun time to come. i found a new hobby when working tt is to YOUTUBE. hahas. wat to do. work is boring..... feel free to msg me if u ppl are bored. i can entertain you. but no prank call pls. somemore no one supervise me cos im at the corner of the office. all blindspot covered. LOL but the lady in front of me damn power. caught me once off guard. red handed. but i tink shes a good person. HOPEFULLY.
anw.. swimming last night was damn good. for the first time. i managed to cover 800m when i can barely swim 200m last week. i tink mus be the steriods at my work place. hahas. technique is really impt.. the coach advice works. but it feels so good after a great workout. and to alvin.. fyi. I DIN DROWN UNLIKE WAT U EXPECTED. im still surviving well. i tink u need to postpone ur mahjong and curry chick session.
the silence in the office feels so tense... u nv noe whose arrows are aiming towards who. but at least they seems very friendly. tts the scary part.
my current status is good. i feel so not burdened. so carefree. ha
attachment not over, i alr planned nice nice how am i gonna spent the money. kudos. hols and re makeover of my room.
intended furniture to buy: - sofa bed (1 or 2 seater) - Double deck bed frame (witout the bottom bed) - 32/27 " samsung LED tv - and a soft comfort bed mattress
adding on to the home theatre system i have at home and the gaming console. plus some movie DVDs. tt will be a blast. i can jus laze at home to relax.
intended Holiday destination: - Taiwan - Korea - Hong Kong - Japan - Backpack?
to those peeps who are still studying now.. i wan to tell u all one thing. treasure it. cos work is never easy.
bombed by things to do today. tired and stressed. dun be suprised to see how tired i am if u see me.
i miss my life as a student. so carefree. now i cant be careless. office politics. hahas.
posted @ 9/15/2009 12:01:00 PM |
14 September 2009
day 1 of work. damn bored. everything i do is all alone. lonely walk from one plant to another lonely lunch lonely in office william and xiaoli good lah but one thing good abt here is.. i got nth to do. hahas. first time blogging from here. well done. well... work ending soon :)
posted @ 9/14/2009 03:20:00 PM |
today is the end of the comex show. went on thur and fri fri is the spend money day bought omnia 2 from there witout any hesitation new phone new beggining no more saved msgs
and in 7 hrs i will be starting work and im kinda sians. hahas. all the best to me. goodnight.
you will be in the back of my mind. for sure i will.
glad yo finally have the courage. i will be fine. :) if you are reading tis.. i will still be there if u ever need anyone to be ard you. tts the least i could do. iwill stay positive. and hope you too. you got a great grp of frens ard you. i suppose you will still be happy. keep tt sweet smile of urs on at all time. i will fulfill my promises soon. dun tink much abt it. cheers :)
okk. back to my shoulder aching.
i tink i hurt it last night when swimming
wat to do.
只求个nice body shape.
hmmm.. still got wat course i can sign up for. i wonder.
do give me some suggestions..
posted @ 9/09/2009 04:30:00 PM |
went swimming lesson today with jf and yj(ying jing *incase u got mixed up)
wah finally understood.
游泳不是盖的
my hands are weak after dunno how many laps. can feel myself gasping for breath. im so excited to learn swimming anw. went toapayoh agn today to acc yj to register for instructor course. with jf of course.. i met them hlfway after dental checkup at SGH pass by HDB office. and saw the 3D model of the unit. i was suddenly planning abt how my hse gonna look like. wat will be in it actually.. i was looking at the 2 room flat. cos i tink i kena influenced bykorean style ar. being watching too many korean shows lately 2 rooms for one person. im so gonna draw the layout of my dream apartment. maybe tml. i wan to make it as comfortable. imagine.. after a tiring day of work. gng back home to such a nice and comfortable hse. dun u feel damn shiok..... will be back when i scan my layout into the laptop.
posted @ 9/09/2009 12:42:00 AM |
08 September 2009
hey peeps
guess wat.
im gonna take swimming classes.
which later on.. be takin on life saving class too.
hope do able to finish it. hahas
why swimming and lifesaving.
cos gt once i almost drowned at open sea. cos im aint good at swimming
and thus, i will have aquaphobia. witout float.
swimming pool still ok. cos im tal enough to touch the ground
so im tryingto overcome my phobia.
tts why learning swimming and lifesaving.
i wanna pick up newskills.
eugene is sort of my target now.
cos he got lots of license.
hahas.
imagine.
kayak
scuba diving
power boat
driving
andlike got many more.
he go time and money wat..
now since my spending had decreased greatly.
and my budget is increasing
im so gonna learn new skills.
thus, my life will be more fulfilling
posted @ 9/08/2009 02:22:00 AM |
how did u do it how did u make it seems so easy
if the someone you love is not wit you everywhere seems like a deserted place. haha. a new chapter, booking marking the previous one.
posted @ 9/08/2009 01:32:00 AM |
05 September 2009
5 months of slavery starts in a week time all of the sudden i dread attachment wait. maybe all teh while i hv been dreadingit. maintainance and engineering imagine all the warehouse i mus run ard. sians worst of all. im working alone. no ppl to tok to. i tink.
one more week of hols. and im not gng waste it ny further. take care.
posted @ 9/05/2009 01:10:00 AM |
04 September 2009
there is always a shoulder waitin right here for you. if u ever need one.
posted @ 9/04/2009 10:10:00 AM |
now that im sick. will you take care of me?
you seemed happy with life right now. tts good for you
back frm get away. facing the quiet sea at night. thought abt lots of things. ya. dun need to guess. its her im tinking abt. i dunno wat else i can do abt it. back to reality after stepping foot in sg
i wan to live in my dream. hahas. IMPOSSIBLE
when i lose myself, i tink of you I'm never gonna say goodbye cuz I never wanna see you cry I swore to you my love would remain and I swear it all over again and I I'm never gonna treat you bad cuz I never wanna see you sad I swore to share your joy and your pain and I swear it all over again all over again
posted @ 9/04/2009 10:04:00 AM |
02 September 2009
you can never est how much you screwed up my life. and i cant do much abt it. you came and you went. witout a word or two and im left wondering wat happened. maybe its jus my life is meant to be screwed up.
you are jus like a typhoon. the damage is so bad.
now how i wish i can get out of sg. and jus chill my time away. instead of gng for short get a way.
haha. i wan to be angry. but i jus cant bear to be angry.
爱恨真是一线之差
i wan to hold your hands and lead you thru the bad times. guess now i wont be given a lil chance to do so.
off i go. bye. i really miss you these few weeks. take care. dunno if you will read tis oso.
posted @ 9/02/2009 07:12:00 AM |
01 September 2009
i need a time out to relax. wont be in SG for the coming few days.
jus nice. can have a peaceful environment to tink. take care.
