31 December 2009

2009 is coming to an end. lets do some reflection.

today is the 365 days later of me passing my driving license.there will be a countdown party tonight.

2009 had been quite a bitter sweet year for me.
let me start by toking abt the bitter part of the year.
for the start. this year had made me lose 2 women that i regarded very important to me in my life.
one passed away. the other, we ended our r/s.
my maternal grandpa almost, but thankfully did not, passed away.
but my paternal grandma wasnt tt fortunate enough.
she passed away tis aug. right before my final exam.
tt was the first time i attended a wake as a close family member.
i can still remember the moment which my uncle smsed me tt she passed away.
i was doing a presentation then. right before the start of it.
i held myself back for the presentation. and rushed down to hosp immd after tt.
and never once did i cry tt badly before.
both my brother and i were damn attached to her. she was the one who brought me up.
and the moment i realised shes gone. its uncontrollable anymore.
even now, if ppl start toking abt grandmother, you can see tears in my eyes. tts why im very sensitive to this topic.

the other important lady that i lost was my last gf.
though she is technically not the first, but shes practically she is the one.
other than my mother and grandmother, shes the 3rd lady that really left a mark in my heart.
but too bad. fate decided that we are not supposed to be tog. i jus have to admit it.
and she will always have a good impression. no matter wat i hear.

thats the 2 biggest bitter events that i happened to me.
but my sweet events of the year was also given by her.
ok let me see.
she supported me when i was feeling rather low.
though she was quite tempermental(?) at times but i jus love her
this year was the first time my bday cake was home baked. by her of cos.
and it really tasted nice. i swear. i will always remember tt.
but to tink back now. i din really do a good job as a bf. okk no use tinking of tt now.
write it as failure. read it as experience.

went for YEP tis yr too. tt trip made me open my eyes to china. it kinda changed my opinion of them now. farm life can be damn fun too. im applying to go agn nxt yr.

okk. so tts my reflection for 2009.

i hope 2010 will be kind to me. thank you.
and everyone.



HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

posted @ 12/31/2009 11:59:00 PM |