DAY: 30
Weather: cloudy with a lil su
MOOD: BAD

it had been 30 days since my life was turned upside down. for teh past 30 days, every day was tough to get through. today was no different. and how i pass my day. tt is by slping. slept till 2 plus tis afternoon den woke up and ate lunch and den medicine and then back to slp. all the way till evening den visit my grandpa who was hospitalised.

it wasnt the hols tt i planned out during sch term. i was really looking forward to the hols man. the movie date the birdpark thing and everything. but my dream was dashed jus right at the start of the hols. why mus thing turn out this way and worse, how? there were no signs no symptoms. i really din saw it coming. if only i could easily shut off my mind and stop tinking. cos everyday i will reflect on this and wondered wat went wrong. i will keep tinking tt the day before evertything was alright. one click. its freefall all the way. oh god. pls save me!! wat hv i done to deserve it.

damn. i shld hv gone to wuhan. if i did, maybe everything will be fine. damn those teacher who sabotaged me.

Labels: jus another miserable day